Is it normal that i get so sad
I was abused as a child and I fell into a deep depression. My sister started drugs when I was little and I miss her. I would get sad for no reason and just want to cry but I couldn't and then when something small and insignificant happens I lock myself in my room and just have panic attacks and ball my eyes out and act like its such a big deal but I look back and realise it wasn't but in the moment I felt like everything around me was crumbling down. My parents don't seem to care. They've seen my scars they haven't questioned me about them. I ask if I can go to the doctor to do counselling and maybe check to see if I have a mental illness but they say I'm a drama queen and that I'm over reacting but I feel real pain, it's indescribable. I don't know if I'm imagining things or if I'm paranoid but I Am hurting so much. It's stupid but it still hurts. The mental pain is killing me and I don't know what to do. I'm underage so I can't go see anyone by myself, I need an adult. I've talked to my school but she said the she can't do anything unless I'm in danger. I've tried online but they didn't do anything.