Is it normal that i have a loathing for humanity?

I'll bet they heard that here.

Hey, it's perfectly fine, I won't argue. I understand most of your post and I agree on some parts. Yes, they must really be ignorant or maybe they just don't care much.. but yes, if they were to witness such acts or have these acts done to them in it is possible that it could/would change them, yet I don't wish for said acts to be done so that's completely out of the question. Also.. I can 'respect' a person who goes by who they really are, and in-fact I agree with you to a certain degree.. however, I do not agree that you shouldn't work to being a perfect role model. If a man or woman enjoys the idea of murder, they shouldn't do it just because it's being 'them self.' But yes, you should do things with sincerity and honesty.. at least.. to a certain degree that is. You shouldn't be a 'dick' just because you're naturally a 'dick,' it's not right. You should ALWAYS try to be a better person, even if being a better person takes time and dedication.. the problem with the world is everyone seem to be content with how things are, or love to be pacified by everyone and everything. The whole "the only person that matters in the world is yourself" view is a disgusting belief in my opinion, but yeah. Thank you for your input!

Another thing is, I don't think it's fair for women to be considered sluts just for thinking of sex. It's really sad, but it is true for many people that the whole "If you have a key that can open any lock, it's considered a magical key. But if you have a lock that can be opened by any key, it is considered a crummy lock." I personally hate that idea, but it's very true for many people. I don't approve of discrimination or gender stereotypes/roles, etc. Women are not some undesirable god as some apparently believe they are, it's amazing how they can think that. Oh, and.. we shouldn't be animals, we clearly are more advanced than them, so I don't like that argument either.. although apparently people love pretending to be savages. Also.. the whole "rape" fantasies from that perspective is preposterous, I mean really.. they are not the same as rape, not even close. It's an insult to real rape victims by saying it's a rape fantasy. Rape is without consent, "rape" fantasies are ravishment to me. Anyways, I want people to be equal as well, but only if they truly are. A rapist is not the same as a 'saint.' Nor will they ever be in my eyes. I'm sorry if you disagree. However, one thing that did interest me is that since I know what may cause people to have rape fantasies, I can work to try to 'help' people (in my eyes) become better people. Now I'm not even going to argue about that but anyways, the thing is.. I don't think rape fantasies are even justifiable. No matter what happened to you, you are responsible for yourself. I grew up being rather sexist in a way, albeit not overly so. I looked down upon men as they harmed me so very much, yet is that right? the answer is: no. It's not, nor was it ever right. Understandable in a way? Perhaps.. but not right. I no longer even consider gender as something to judge by, so in my opinion I'm a better human being now. I wish there was an easier way to converse with you other than this, as these walls of texts are quite difficult to sort through, sadly.

Anyways, to end this response: In my eyes, rape fantasies are wrong, whether it's about domination, seeing the lifeless look in someones eyes, or pure laziness, it's all wrong to me. Even if it is 'understandable' based on previous events, it does not make things right. I also do not approve of the Battered wife defense used in some cases, where murder is more or less completely ignored based on the premise that the woman was abused and saw no other way out. Should the receive as much punishment as a woman who goes out today and murders a man without 'legitimate' reason? that's where I'm confused.. but anyways, I believe that in this regard, it is completely wrong.

Ehh, to be honest I already know WHY these things are. Doesn't mean I agree or support them at all. If a child grows up in a household where their father abuses their mother, it does not justify them treating women wrong. I hate that defense and it's completely sad to me. I will be more empathetic, sure. But it's still very wrong.

There's also so much more than what I was saying but I can't really say it at the time. Also, I don't think of pedophilia as a mental illness or anything like that.. it's really not that wrong, although I guess it is in the way this world is now. Or inconvenient at the very least.

Actually, I have no issue with you being a pedophile. Pedophile means love of children, it is not wrong to love a child. I could be considered a pedophile too, in a way.. I guess? I don't know. Any who, I have absolutely no issue with you loving children. I'm quite glad you do not go around trying to have sexual intercourse with children as you'd probably go to jail and that's a shame, but you don't dream of harming the child, do you? You don't have to have sex just because you love someone, and I think since everyone associates any form of love t'wards children in a romantic way as something heinous that anyone who has feelings t'wards children thinks it's extremely wrong. Do I have a problem with you loving children? No. Do I have a problem with you wanting to sleep with children? Probably not. (It doesn't work because of how society is.. let's be honest.) I assume science has something to do with it as well.. too a certain degree. But anyways, I'm not incompetent nor do I buy into pedo hysteria.

Basically, as long as you're not (even if not on purpose) trying to harm another living being, I have no real problem with what you do. Whether attracted to old women, old men, horses, whatever-- I can't really argue about consent, as consent never really meant the same to me as it does to others. But, as long as you're not trying to cause harm or anything like that, I don't see much of a problem with it. Again, I could be considered a 'pedophile' in a way, as my love isn't bound to what they are but who they are, the way someone looks and such are just.. bonus? something like that.
However, as a person who cares so dearly about pedophilia (mind you, I do not dream of harming children either, I just wish for people to be free to love whomever they desire to.) Well, of course.. that doesn't always include having sex with them, as sex is not mandatory.

Eh.. sorry for the long reply, but yeah. I have a strong belief that sex should be done with love, yet if you love someone you shouldn't force them to do something against their will, or try to harm them, etc. If pedophilia was on the board to be legalized and it was 100-100 votes and I was the last vote, yes or no.. I'd say no. Why? Because humanity would abuse it severely and then it'd be extremely hard to really argue if it was rape or not and such. But, yeah.. Pedophilia? I used to be ignorant and scared of it, when I was younger I was spoon fed that it was oh so very wrong, just like communism.. (not to compare the two) but.. as I grew up, I learned it's really not so bad. There's people who genuinely care about children in a non-sexual way, and even in a sexual way, many do not have the desire to force the child to go against their will to do so. AT LEAST I hope and pray there's quite a few like that..

The way I live my life is, I wish to be the best example of what a human should be. Of course that's all subjective, yet I try to not harm others that are innocent, even those I disagree with I try not to harm. I'm still thoroughly confused on life and what my hopes, beliefs and goals are.. I have a general idea but how to go about them and what I truly want or can expect to actually happen I am unsure of.. but I agree, I find it a shame that love and sex are mutually exclusive, I always wished they were paired with one another, not that you couldn't have love without sex, but you couldn't have sex without love.. but I guess that's part of humanity. I'm in America as well, I mean.. I think you mean USA, in which case I am too. However, I don't know, I'm sorry. I try not to judge people based solely on their fantasies but it says a lot about the person if they can enjoy something like rape fantasies (going both ways). I also feel like if X is better for humanity, I should settle for no less than trying to get X. If I die before I become the human I desire to be, so be it.. but I don't want to be the average person content with the way things are, but I won't go forcing others to accept my views or anything, in-fact I completely understand why humans are so reluctant to change and other things. However, I am not talking about someone thinking "shut up", "get out the way" or anything like that as something I find wrong. I find it wrong when you're having fantasies of stripping rights from other human beings, as if they were animals yet worse. (I do not condone the violence inflicted upon animals either.)

But.. thank you very much for your replies.

Thanks, I understand that them taking action is the most important thing, however.. I still think deriving sexual gratification from a hypothetical person with hypothetical feelings being harmed is simply wrong, however, I wouldn't send them to jail or something over it.

Well, no. My profession has nothing to do with this, it's just a common thing, especially on the internet. It's weird, I know.. but people love expressing what they're into to me, even if I say I do not agree with it or like it they will continue doing so because in their opinion they have every right to do so, but I'm reluctant to completely block/delete/whatever them because I've never been one to do that, sadly.

Sadly..