Is it normal that i have always been made fun of my whole life

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I suffer from schizophrenia depression and anxiety. In high school people would call me black Steve. In college people called me spaceman or space for shorts. Every job I ever had I was made fun of. Girls said I was creepy or weird. All I ever want to do now is sleep or think of suicidal thoughts. So I don’t have to be made fun of. I rarely leave my room or talk on the phone or to family. Stopped watching tv. Sometimes can’t get out of bed to brush teeth or eat or get haircut and am paranoid about people that cough intentionally around me. (Ahem cough cough) never go anywhere anymore. I feel like the whole world is laughing at me all the time.

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  • paramore93
    6 years ago

    Have you actually been diagnosed?
    Meds? If you are on meds they obviously aren't working ..

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  • Lighttunnel23
    6 years ago

    Just think of ppl as real life trolls they just want a reaction.

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  • Ellenna
    6 years ago

    If you've been diagnosed and you're being treated, you need to talk to whoever's treating you.

    Please do so: life doesn't have to be as sad as yours sounds to be

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    • Kevinevan
      6 years ago

      It is for many people Ellenna, myself included. Not everyone is blessed with loving friends and family, or even coworkers for that matter.

      Just because someone "treats" you doesn't mean a magic wand has been waived that will cure your ills or make your life better.

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      • Ellenna
        6 years ago

        I know some people are in much more difficult circumstances than others and I wasn't suggesting there's any such thing as a magic wand to make anyone's life better, because to some extent that's up to the person concerned.

        However, I would point out my favourite quote, words to the effect that there's one freedom no-one can take away from another and that's the freedom to choose how to respond to any circumstances. From "Man's Search for Meaning" by a Holocaust survivor. Check it out: it's got me through many hard times.

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        • Kevinevan
          6 years ago

          I will check it out. Yes i agree, how we respond makes all the differnce. I've learned to tolerate or even enjoy the humor many a situation which seemed intorerable, but they are still horrendous situations. Often health issues complicate matters and even qualified doctor's dont know how to solve them and throwing money at the issue often makes it worse. Doctors will always take our money, regardless of if they actually help.

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          • Ellenna
            6 years ago

            Yep, humour is a great sanity saver sometimes, I agree. So is physical exercise and music and meditation and getting out into natural surroundings.

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  • McBean
    6 years ago

    I'm sorry. You must feel terrible.

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  • [Old Memory]
    6 years ago

    OMG same here dude! I have depression, anxiety, aspergers, and suspected PTSD and schizophrenia (suspected because my mom (adoptively speaking) hasn't gotten me in yet to confirm it). I only went to school in kindergarten, 2nd grade, 6th grade, 9th grade, and part of 10th grade. I got bullied badly and was a bully myself too. Kids would pick on me for my stutter and because I don't get jokes sometimes. Im also a fox/wolf Therian and I got picked on for it (although strangely enough people liked my tail :/ ?).
    I've tried to kill my self and gone after other people a lot of times and got hospitalized for it. I'm better than before, but I still feel wild and miserable. There's not a day that goes by that I don't want to kill everyone and end my suffering. It's really stupid that people force others who are suffering like that to stay alive. If a horse breaks a leg, they shoot it. But if someone has been angry and scared and screaming in agony inside for their entire life, they do nothing. Nobody cares unless you're popular or dead. All they do is judge people, oblivious to anything outside their tiny circular live. So I don't care about them either unless they're suffering like me. Those people get it. They probably aren't going to hurt me if I get close.
    I'm sensing you're the same? Correct me if I'm wrong.
    I'm here if you want to talk.

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  • xfg59
    6 years ago

    Assemble the following items: ear plugs, noise-cancelling headphones, sunglasses, hoodie, baseball cap. The problem is that you have difficulty ignoring people because they talk and try to make eye contact with you. The aforementioned items will help to block out all those annoyances. Working on your 1000 yard stare will also help.

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  • Nickvey
    6 years ago

    i used to watch TV , then i just recorded it . then i just recorded the news , then two weeks ago i stopped recording news. Its all fake. 100 percent fake. Not worth my time . id rater watch you tube where people actually make things , oh and porn . lots and lots of porn.

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  • platov
    6 years ago

    have confident. God create u for a purpose. do not let people judge u. u are limited edition. do goods

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  • StevenL
    6 years ago

    I have been diagnosed by professionals actually. I have been taking meds since I was 20 yrs old. I’m 32 years old now. I haven’t been on meds for the past year because my healthcare ran out. I have seeked out help in the past by going to group seeing a psychiatrist and therapist. I have been on depakote, seroquel, respiradol, Zoloft, clozapine, abilify as well as a few other medications over the years. Nothing has helped. Each medicine has different side effects including weight gain, involuntary face movements, dry mouth, eye crust, low libido, erectile dysfunction, and lethargy from my personal experience. No I am not making this up. If anyone thinks I’m lying I can give you my personal email as well as my doctors name as well as the facilities where I stayed if you want to look me up. When I was first diagnosed I did inpatient for a while month as well. [email protected] is my email

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    • Kevinevan
      6 years ago

      I've been on all of those too and can attest to the fact they have bad side affects.

      Abilify caused me to go stark raving mad and I wound up hospitalized.

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  • LuxM4G
    6 years ago

    How long ago have you been diagnosed with schizophrenia, depression and anxiety? What meds are you currently taking and took in the past?

    From your testimony, i can only assume your condition is worsening, and/or the meds aren't working. Do you have frequent appointments with your psychiatrist?

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  • Hateful1
    6 years ago

    Welcome to real life. Everyone everywhere makes fun of everyone. You need to stop worrying about what other people think. Oh, and don't self diagnose mental problems leave that to professionals.

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    • Ellenna
      6 years ago

      You don't know OP is self-diagnosing, so don't trivialise mental illness

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      • Hateful1
        6 years ago

        First I don't trivialize mental Illness. As someone diagnosed as mentally ill by professionals I understand it more then most. What I HATE is the fact that mental illness has become stylish and everyone is running around with four or five different conditions. Everyone is suffering from depression and anxiety. Oh don't forget obsessive compulsive disorder and schizophrenia and borderline personality disorder and multiple personalities. People, just because your friends have something doesn't mean you have it. Looking something up online doesn't mean you have been diagnosed. Also just because you general practitioner prescribes you medication does not mean you need it.

        Second, You don't know OP isn't self-diagnosing. More than half of the people on this site are trolls. The rest are whining Munchhausens who post the same thing over and over again.

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      • RoseIsabella
        6 years ago

        That's right! I don't think I've ever met a self-diagnosed paranoid schizophrenia ever. Not that necessarily means anything, but I just thought I'd share that.

        I suffer from depression, anxiety and insomnia among other things, and there are a good number of people who seem to think that I have chosen this misery. Lots of people are very ignorant when it comes to mental illness.

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        • LuxM4G
          6 years ago

          Are you currently taking any medicine Isabella?

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        • Hateful1
          6 years ago

          Paranoid schizophrenia and regular schizophrenia are two different things. Have you ever met a schizophrenic, ever? I have them in my family, but I just thought I'd share that.

          Have you actually been diagnosed by professionals or did you self-diagnose yourself? Also everyone experiences these symptoms. It does not mean you have these conditions. Most people are ignorant about mental illness which is the problem. Read my reply to Ellenna, please.

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          • rayb12
            6 years ago

            Ur an asshole. If u doubt dude is serious just say nothing. People who try to help are at worst getting trolled. But what you're doing is potentially bullying someone who is suffering from literally this kind of treatment. He is showing signs of paranoia as well but shouldn't have to prove anything to you. How can you act like such a jackass without proof that OP is lying. U are literally being so mean!

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