Is it normal that i have no drive?
When I was 18, my whole family wanted me to go to college. I on the other hand, did not. I've hated school ever since I can remember. However, to please them, I went to a University. At the end of the semester, I got on academic probation. I failed out of that school at the end of the second semester.
I thought that I would then be able to try to find a job, and maybe figure out what I wanted to do with my life. On the contrary, my mother decided that I needed to have school and that I needed to go to the community college closest to our house. Just for her, I applied and went. I had no drive their either, and I failed again.
My mother, being the very persistent woman that she is, told me that I NEED to be in school. So once again, just to please her, I went to the community college for another torturing, dream-killing semester. And yet again, who would've guessed it, I failed.
Now I'm sitting here, 20 years old, lost as to what I want to do with my life. I do not have any drive to do anything what so ever. I am lost. I know that college, at the moment, is not for me, but I do not know what else to do.
Is it normal?