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Ever since I was little and read a book about a girl sharing my name, I've kinda been narrating my life. I feel like I'm in a movie, like there's always someone watching me, judging everything I do. Even when I cry I wonder if I'm being dramatic enough, feeling like if I'm not, the audience will not see how sad I am.
no, that just means you might have an undiscovered talent for writing fictional novels, or descriptive biographies and historical events.
Find yourself dude.
This sounds like an incredibly prolonged period of dissociation. Congrats, you're nuts! Kidding... or am I?
IAST, sometimes I have these kinds of thoughts. I think it started for me after I became paranoid that all my dead relatives were judging me from heaven. I started to feel sort of like I was on TV like you.
Sometimes I have the same sort of "out of body" experiences, where I experience my own behaviours as a separate outsider, and judge myself for them. I often hear my own voice as if it's coming from another person, and I'm keenly aware of my own body language and involuntary movements. Sometimes when I'm really upset I actually imagine dramatic background music. I think I feel sympathy for myself in the same way I feel it for others, as if I'm not really living within my own body.
Sometimes I will also narrate my own life in my head during stressful moments. It seems to calm me down. I don't think we're nuts, but I do think we experience consciousness a little differently than others. Maybe we're just more open-minded and think more creatively? Otherwise, we're batty :)