Is it normal that i look for places to get raped
I've been raped a few times and I love it after my last rape I go places to try and get raped I go out without a bra and shirt on just my coat so I can walk down dark alleys with my breast out or I masturbate while in the alley hoping that someone rapes me its only happen a few times since doing this I need more please help me idk what to do I'm in Chicago if someone can really help me