Is it normal that i lost my virginity to an escort?
Well, I am 24, never had sex with anyone, only had about 2 or 3 girlfriends, all were short term and only ever kissed them. I'm sure they wouldn't have even considered me a boyfriend as they had long term boyfriends before me and they probably just saw me as a guy they dated a couple of times.
The point is I can be very shy when it comes to girls and sex, I had never even been naked or seen a girl naked in person before today, other than maybe topless on a beach when I was on holiday. I do have pretty good morals too, obviously getting to the age of 24 and never seeing a girl naked in person or being naked in front of a girl kinda shows that.
Today I'd arranged to meet a 19 year old escort I had messaged online. The plan was to have a short time with her and buy an item of clothing from her. Then I got very worried about it and the plan was to just meet her to buy the item of clothing.
When she answered the door to me and invited me to come in I thought she looked incredible, she was so beautiful and had a lovely voice and seemed like such a genuinely nice girl. So I asked if she was still okay to do the short little meet to which she said she was.
She invited me to her room and we had a chat about our names and what it is we do and then she began to kiss me and worked her way down to giving me a blowjob. She did say she was 100% STD free. She undressed and asked me to undress, at this stage I said I dunno how far I'd want to go and she said we'll just see how things go. Things progressed and she put a condom on me and got on top of me. I was a bit nervous and she commented on it and tried as much as she could to help me chill out. After a few changes of positions and so on we had a drink and got dressed.
I never wanted to lose my virginity like that and walking away from there I was regretting it and thinking what had I done but as the day has gone on I am starting to think I am not regretting it too much. I have texted the girl since and she has replied and been nice to me. I understand escorts are always nice to clients but she has treated me as an individual and has been nice to me and taken things well with me.
I have since said I would like to meet up with her again in a few months and have a longer meet which she has agreed to. I really like this girl and if it means paying every now and then to spend some time with her is that so bad and if stuff happens whilst we meet, again is that so bad? I enjoyed our time together and respected her and I don't feel much different than when I was a virgin but I suppose it has given me a little more confidence as I now know what it is like to be with a really good looking girl.
Also I feel like I have lost my virginity in a sense but in another way I feel like this is kinda just like when you go on a date for the first time or something. Like when I actually meet a girl I end up falling in love with it will be like the first time when we have sex as it will be the first time I've had sex with a girl I am in love with, like losing my making love virginity as opposed to just sex. Is this normal to feel this way?