Is it normal that i'm a young woman who hasn't had a bf in forever...
I'll be 22 this summer. The last time I had a boyfriend I was 20. It was a short & rough relationship, ended up badly, and left me all f*cked up. I had an abortion. The pregnancy messed up my perfect skin. I cut off all my hair. It was rough.
I don't blame him anymore because it wasn't necessarily his fault, nor do I feel distrustful/angry towards men. I see where I made mistakes with that particular ex; I made those same mistakes plenty of times before, except they didn't lead me to such an ugly place. I never really knew how to be "a woman", or have a boyfriend or be loved by a man so...yeah whatever.
I guess my problem now is that I'm afraid I'm getting old? I know it sounds ridiculousness, but when I was a teenager I didn't worry about getting older and having to find a serious mate. Being in a long-term relationship never seemed "real" to me, as if it wouldn't happen or I wouldn't want it.
I think 22 is a little old to not have ever been in a serious relationship. I don't even date? I have a job, go to the gym, have a few girlfriends (kind of lol) but I don't have male suitors. I think I'm afraid that my youth and beauty won't be around forever, and that I'm wasting time NOT dating.
I guess, is it normal that I feel this way or do I need to relax? I feel like I'm just all pent up inside.