Is it normal that i'm being mentally forced to be "normal" by friends?

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So I've always been the type of person to be the outcast of a friend group. I was always the wacky, unorthodox, sometimes stupid guy who didn't have a care in the world. People were always insistent on telling me to shut it and act like everyone else: To be a good little sheep, to put it bluntly. I never listened for a good few years, but it got different very recently. I couldn't take it anymore and decided "screw it, I can't be bothered trying anymore". Now people ask me why I'm always so quiet and to myself, when it was those very same people who forced me to act this way. I tried so hard to block out all the negativity and social issues everyone else had been through: I somehow avoided it, until it forced its way through. As I type this, it's half 12 in the morning, and the only thing I'm looking forward to is a television show in 2 weeks time, because people have sucked the life out of me, and shunned me out for wanting to act the way I am. I'm by no means the type of guy to contemplate suicide, I'm just very tired of my situation. And no, I'm not depressed, never have, never will be. I just hate this idea that I'm being told to do something a certain way and if I rebel, then everyone starts to fuck off and claim not to be a part of it. Everyone's drifting away, which has its positives as well as negatives, since almost everyone I've met has let me down in some point in life. Any feedback? Literally ANYTHING is appreciated. This is a bit of a rant as well as a is it normal question, so feel free to ask or answer anything for me.

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  • AbnormallyAwesome
    7 years ago

    There's this phenomenon called group dynamics. Within a group every member has a role to play: For example the leader, the follower, the loser or the clown. Now those roles are played subconsciously and here's the really weird part: Eventhough nobody likes the loser and everybody tells the clown to shut up; the group still needs those people to function. That's why it's incredebly hard to break out of a role without changing your group.
    Okay that sounded weird and theoretical, but look at it like this: People have a strong need to put you in a box. So far they've put you in the clown box. And now that you stopped being the clown they have no idea what box to put you in.

    In the end you should just be yourself, and if your friends can't deal with that it's time for new friends. Every new environement gives you a chance to reinvent yourself because people haven't put you in a box yet.
    But maybe you just need to give it a little more time.

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  • mysistersshadow
    7 years ago

    Why do you care what ppl think?

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  • Terence_the_viking
    7 years ago

    Tell them to stop trying to change you or find friends that are more accepting of who you are as they would appreciate you more.

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  • Smokey1D
    7 years ago

    Yes group dynamics are always so hard to figure out. You all seem to be getting on really well for a while, and as you get to know each other better, you gravitate to the ones you like and who show you attention and like you. The others kind of move away a bit and they're doing the same regrouping as well. Relationships sort of evolve. I try to be friendly to people I used to be close to still though. We don't have to discard each other when we work out we're not each others type.

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