Is it normal that i'm paranoid about my safety if i enter politics?
I've recently developed a major interest in entering politics (and with it the ability to change things for the better), the idea of being a representative, governor, senator, part of the president's cabinet or actually being the president (if the natural-born clause is ever repealed), etc. has always fascinated me. I know it wouldn't be an easy route for anyone, but I'm wondering if my safety would be in too much jeopardy based on my circumstances.
Thing is, I was born to Muslim parents and all of my extended family consider themselves Muslim (some of them are pretty right wing). Problem with that is that I'm a closeted Atheist, only one of my family members even knows what I really am and they've made sure not to tell anyone. So far I've kept up the facade whenever I'm around them, but there's no way I could keep it up if I ran for any major office. Due to the amount of things people dig up on their opponents in politics, I feel like even if I changed my name and looks, my opponents would still find a way to show to the public that I am an apostate. I don't think even trying to sever all contact with my extended family and assuming a new identity before running for a major office would still work.
On top of the risk of an honor killing from within my extended family and certain Muslims of the American public, I feel like my biggest risk would be from abroad. Given the amount of Muslim-majority countries with large groups of people who hate the US, a major American political figure who is an ex-Muslim would seem to be the perfect target for an assassination, and I feel like for the rest of my life I'd have to worry about some right wing nutjob trying to shoot me or trying to blow themselves up if that takes me down with them.
I'll add that the majority of Muslims I've encountered here in America don't actually agree with the killing of apostates and think that it's just the extremists who agree with that (even though on the wider scale that's unfortunately not true), but the threat from within and especially abroad definitely still remains.
I wonder if I should kill my dreams now before they (possibly) get me killed.