Is it normal that i pretend to be a candle stick?

I love their smell, and their taste, but is it normal that I cover myself with hot wax and set my hair on fire? Sometimes the wax encases my eyes and I cannot see for a solid day, but I like the feeling. Everyone says I’m weird and shouldn’t do it but it just feels right. I feel like I’m in my element, standing on my kitchen table, my hair slowly turning to ash and when it’s over, I feel like I have just been reborn from my mother’s uterus. Is that normal?