Is it normal that i used to choke my lovebird?
When i was 8 years old, i had a pet lovebird, i handfed him all the time. I used grab his neck and choke him, he'd scream and scream, d i only let go when he was passing out. Then i would perform some sort of cpr i guess... and after he'd recuperate id calm him down and treat him really nicely, only to do it again after a while. Sometimes id do it 5 times in a little while. Besides that i was always sweet to him. One day i drowned him, im not sure it was calculated like that... and started crying and crying, i dont know why i cried, i never actually cared about him (besides him being cute) or even miss it afterwards, id just wish i had another bird to choke. I was also into having dogs lick me, and masturbating them, i used my dogs, and whatever dog i could get at that age, id offer to bathe them and people would pay me, and i bathed the dog, but also made it lick me out. I used to hit a dog that i had, for some reason i liked intimidating him,she would shiver in a corner and i called her out nicely and liked treating it well afterwards, like calm it down.
*sorry for bad english, first language is spanish
To this day, i feel like im a psychopath or a sociopath. Im so weird. I never fit in.