Is it normal that i want to be of another nationality sometimes?
I'm wondering if this is normal among teens like me? It's mostly because of school and the people living here that I don't really like. I think the education system is too stressful for students to handle. I've asked some of my friends this question: "Do you want to be Japanese?"
And they've all said that they'd rather be that than what they are now. I don't know if it seems too extreme or an identity crisis to you but it's always on my mind and no one I talk to would really understand how I feel. I want to lead a fun and non-stressful student life but at the same time, be able to find a good job and to make nice friends.
I feel the students here are too stressed because of all the pressure parents, teachers and relatives put on exams and studies. If students don't meet our relatives' standards we'll be looked down upon. Parents sometimes resort to caning their children.
Secondly, the people who live here and their attitudes. Sometimes we can be very frustrated and always on the go. For example, if you went to the grocery store you won't get even a smile from the cashier.
I just feel so lost and worried about what to do. It's my dream to be able to study in Japan but I know that will never come true. My parents dislike me to even bring up anything on Japan or about Japanese culture. The country I live in now do not organise exchange student programmes at all. So I have no hope of even going there to visit a school. I don't know if I appear too selfish and not contented with life but I want to study there so much that I want to cry sometimes. My parents won't really understand my problem because they will just get angry at me for even thinking about this and they will never bring it up again. And when I ask, they don't even have a reason. I like to learn new languages and cultures. I sometimes feel that I want to migrate to another country with my family nd live there forever but that will never happen as my parents have normal jobs here and would never quit them. Maybe this is too common and you've heard of this kind of thing before?
I hope you'll be able to understand me and please try to give me good advice on what I should do in order to achieve my dream. Thank you!