Is it normal that i want to die so much and i wish i would just get...

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Is it normal that I want to die so much and I want a disease that will kill me quickly because I'm such a coward. I just don't care about life anymore, it's hard and I just can't deal with it. I fantasise about dying every night and I replay the moment I die in my mind over and over again. I know if I'm dead I'll be dead and that's it. There will be no happiness but there will be no sadness either, there will be nothing.

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Whatintarnation

7 years ago

I'd suggest seeking professional help if I were you. You gotta find a purpose in life. If you're young, things get better. Good luck

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  Thank you for the reply. C:
  
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Tobyrh

7 years ago

I had some struggles with this too. Trust me your brain is just trying to make sense of dying to the point where you don't want to live anymore. When I started feeling better I didn't have the thoughts anymore and became afraid of death again. Seeking professional help is the best thing you can do for yourself. Hope you get better.

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  That makes sense. Thank you.
  
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  I'm afraid of death only in the sense that I'll drive my mom to suicide by my suicide also in what will happen.
  
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TurtleBurger

7 years ago

If you don't value your life maybe you should find a reason for living. If you have no goals or desires than what's the point?

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  I'm trying I swear. I'm trying so hard and it's exhausting.
  
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  - Dreamsao
    
    7 years ago
    
    Stop making excuses. If you do nothing about it and just sit around feeling sorry for yourself, I'm not joining your pity party. I don't pity lazy people who just want everything to just magically fall into their lap. Why would I? You're sad because you're not some special snowflake and you have to actually put work into your life just like everyone else. Suck it up, except it, and move on.
    
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      7 years ago
      
      I'm not, I'm trying. I do all my work and I socialise even though it's really difficult. I'm trying. Mainly for my mom, she doesn't deserve to have to go through that pain for me, I'll try harder. I don't want to be special, also, I just want to be normal and hide in the social conventions. Life is so pointless but I'm trying to find meaning in it, I'm trying. It's hard to find a point in a circle though...
      
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      7 years ago
      
      Accept*
      
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RoseIsabella

7 years ago

You are morbidly depressed and in need of some mental health care.

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  - RoseIsabella
    
    7 years ago
    
    Yep, I think you need help. Depression is a medical condition. Please ignore the stupid haters that are giving you attitude, and start trying to get help. If you seek help in one place and they poo poo on you then flush em down, kick the dust off your feet and go to the next place.
    
    Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary probably. Stay alive, the world needs you, because it's already full of raging assholes, and something tells me you lead with your heart not your ass.
    
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      7 years ago
      
      I try to be a good person but it's hard especially since everyone is so mean to me, your comment was really nice thank you.
      
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      - RoseIsabella
        
        7 years ago
        
        You're very welcome! Please hang in there, hold on...
        
        https://youtu.be/ijZRCIrTgQc
        
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sandysandra

7 years ago

Pray and you'll find the answers your looking for. Try vitamin B1, 100mg. It will help inhance your mood. You can also seek professional help. I really hope you get better. I do....

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Rentig

7 years ago

Want my opinion? Do what you want. Natural selection/survival of the fittest will run it's course and the weak will be purged from society. This might seem dark but you asked a dark question. It is up to you to decide whether you are weak or you're worthy of life.

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jsnpq

7 years ago

You are super depressed. Get professional help ASAP before you hurt or kill yourself. You deserve to live. Talk to a psychiatrist or dovlctor about getting on some meds.

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Hello.:c

7 years ago

I posted anonymous by accident. /\

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7 years ago

I mainly can't because I've come to realise there are good things in life.
Also my mum said if I kill myself she'd literally go insane and probably just live a shitty life and I know It would be shitty of me to do that to her.

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tash@jazshouse

7 years ago

if your going to kill yourself maybe try some hallucinogenic drugs. they can open your mind and maybe you can find out the true cause of hating your life and if you overdose.....

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  I'll try but it's hard to come across those things when you're as young as I.
  
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Dreamsao

7 years ago

Just means you're too weak to do what everyone else does and survive on this planet. Just let natural selection do its work. Unless I'm wrong and you really aren't as pathetic as you sound right now. If you don't like your life then change it. Simple as that.

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  I'm trying to change my life. There are good things that happen when I'm at home, I want to live for those moments. I want to grow up and get the farm with my cousin with the pig and chickens and pigeons around the windmill. With the steam down by the bottom with the sunshine making the water sparkle as people splash about. With the crops growing for harvest so we can make our own food. It's going to be great but there's always a shadow of doubt in my mind, I know that's never going to happen and my life will turn out bad. The voice in my head tells me I'm worthless and I agree, it tells me to kill myself and I... I try to ignore.
  
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  - Dreamsao
    
    7 years ago
    
    Not getting a farm isn't going to ruin your life. If that's the worst thing you fear then you're fine. And usually that voice comes around because you let it. Damn it. Get out of the house sometime and live.
    
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      7 years ago
      
      I do and that's not what I fear that's just what I know. I'm scared because everything in my life is going south and I'm trying to turn it around. My best friend is always there for me though, he makes me feel so much better. I hope we get the farm soon and we can chill together and everything will be good. If I wait everything will be good. I've got problems but I'm ashamed to share them so no one understands how I feel but I can't burden them anyhow. I'll just pretend and I'll just go on.
      
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      - Dreamsao
        
        7 years ago
        
        Why don't you try to change your perspective? Find something good in your life instead of always focusing on things that make you depressed. Or go to the doctor and get Zoloft if that doesn't work.
        
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        7 years ago
        
        I'll do that, the farm is my main priority now. I have to make it happen, nothing else matters. I have to make sure our farm is perfect, it will have animals and crops and anyone is invited as long as they're nice. It'll be great, I'm going to love our farm and I'll make sure that nothing goes wrong, nothing else matters.
        
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