Is it normal that i want to find more ways to be gross and disgusting

I like being stinky and disgusting. But i feel like i could do more to be even more smelly and gross. i don't like being clean and i don't feel good after taking baths or showers. Also as i've said i really do like being disgusting. I smell farts, i never use deodorant and i try to sweat up a stink as much as possible, i eat my boogers and i don't use toothpaste. What i wan to know is, is my desire to become even more foul and vile normal? Why do i feel this way? Is there a logical explanation for this?