Is it normal that i want to have a sexual relationship with my son?
I know this has been asked before but a lot of people don't take it seriously so I thought I'd just ask. I am 42 and my son is 20. My husband left us about 3 years ago and since then, I have not had any sexual contact, other than occasional masturbation. My son has only had 1 girlfriend in his life, when he was 14 and that only lasted 2 months. About 2 years ago, my view of him started to change. He started to "use the bathroom" for about 2 hours a day, sometimes twice a day. When he thinks I'm not home, I peek on him masturbaiting on his bed because he leaves the door open. Some of my panties would disappear for about a week and then returned while I am at work, still clean. These are just small instances that has led up to last weekend. We were watching House, our favorite show at the moment, on the couch. We usually cuddle together and have been for awhile but this time he surprised me by kissing me on the cheek. I didn't know how to respond or react to that so I just sat there shocked for a few seconds until he did it again but on my lips. We ended up kissng for about a minute and a half or 2 min. while the episode finished. After that, I got up before him and just went in my bedroom. We haven't talked about it since then and everything has been relitivly normal but I know he is thinking about doing more and I, honestly, want to as well. I have been seeing him as a lover lately and a substitute, for lack of a better word, for a husband. I was shocked at my own feelings so I looked it up, I read online that a bunch of mothers do it and have been doing it for a long time and they said they have been very happy every since. Is it normal that I feel this way? Should I pursue it?