Is it normal that i want to kill one of my students?
I have been teaching Grade 7 math for four years now, and I have actually been a popular teacher at the school I teach at. I am always nice and kind to my students, and I have never had a problem with one...until this year.
There is a boy in my class who is a nightmare. He talks back to me and he is rude and violent to the other students. His grades are plummeting to the bottom, and he dosen't seem to try.
His parents also have no idea how to handle him. Many people think he has ADHD, but he was tested a few years ago and it was not successful.
A few days before Christmas holidays, he threw a softball at my head. I got a severe bump on my head and he apparently was trying to get the attention of the class, so I sent him out.
After a few minutes,I left the room to talk to him. He was being very rude by spitting at me and pinching me while I was trying to talk to him calmly. He then made fun of my race (I am black) and called me a 'fat nigger'.
At this point,I couldn't take it. I am not known to lose my cool like this.
I punched him in the face. Several times.
I was recently suspended from my job and my future is uncertain at this school. The boy has been suspended for a week as well.
But this boy is out of control, and I know where he lives. I sometimes drive by his house at night and think about kidnapping and killing him.
Please tell me if this is normal...