Is it normal that my biggest fear is becoming a true adult?

My biggest fear, stronger than any other one (even death) is becoming an adult. I am currently 19 and in college and I feel like my entire life as I know it is going to end for the worse in a few years after graduation. I observe people like my parents and other people's parents and they always appear to be miserable boring people who never have any fun and just live to work and then plop down in front of the tv for their remaining time and complain about money as often as possible.

As of now I only have two real friends and no girlfriend (although that is probably for the better because kids and a wife seem to be the one thing that truly ends all excitement in your life). I always longed for a larger social group, but due to my extreme shyness I very rarely meet people. I've also heard that after college, even for social people, your chances to meet new people significantly dies off. So as a result, since I plan to teach English in another country (or in another state on the west coast), I feel that it is highly likely that I am going to be completely without friends whatsoever which further kills my opportunities for excitement.

Last but not least is the perception of being 'old' to people. I feel that after I pass the age of 30, people are going to start viewing me as the 'old creepy guy' at a bar or wherever I may go. I feel like I am an immature person by personality and even after many years will reject fulfilling that stereotype of a 'family man'and will still yearn to join in on activities and dress in ways that are popular with the youth, however due to my aging appearance, people will view me as immature or 'creepy' for doing them.

The only glimmer of hope I have for the future is my life of travel that I have planned as a career. Teaching English in foreign countries will allow me to do the biggest passion in my life which is learning and using languages other than my native tongue as well as teaching my own and being immersed in other cultures. My only qualm about this is the fact that I will have no social life or friends (I couldn't even do it stateside!) and that I will never be able to find a girl or fall in love with someone (which is a huge mixed emotion of mine because that could end up being the very thing that forces me to 'settle down'). I've become rather strong at being a loner and can go weeks without hearing a single word from anyone and being okay with it, but I eventually reach a point where I just become lonely and wish that I had someone to talk to.

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  • I am the same, I worry about getting old and not looking hot, going saggy and wrinkly, losing touch with the trends, not going partying and not having friends an being boring etc. I'm not that scared of death - ithappens to every human being in the world, but I love being young and beautiful. My main concern is how I look tbh, but I also want a life.. I look at my parents an think the same as you most of the time, especially my min, she has no life and is it ambitious. However I'm more like y dad, I aim to strive and achieve highly an I'm ambitious and adventurous. He is 47 and he regularly takes holidays to go paragliding off mountains, he skiis, he windsurfs, he ice skates, he is part of the local hockey club (grassy hockey), he took part in the tour de France last year, and he has a hot girlfriend and they go to the gym together and make all their friends there. They go on joint holidays sort their friends to Spain etc and they often have their friends over for a barbeque or a meal and chill in the hot tub. Do I don't think his life is too bad, which kinda gives me hope. My passion is also languages, culture and travel. II am studying French and Japanese and wish to spend lots of time in Canada, france, and japan. I also would love to travel lots in my life.
    If I can fall in love and marry somebody with similar ambitions then before kids we can do that together , and then when we want kids we can do it as a team and do all the exciting family things :) and when I grow old and wrinkly and ugly it will be okay because he will be too and we will have grown old together :D so I don't think life is looking too bad :) be optimistic!

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  • moomus

    Don't worry, I'm 35 as not a true adult yet! Have 3 kids and don't feel any different than when I was 19! Getting older isn't what you think it is, and you're only as old as u feel

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  • cupcake33

    At 8, I looked at my parents watching anything other than cartoons and thought they were horribly boring people. At 15, I would curl my lip at any mention of anyone over 30 being even remotely cool. At 21, I thought that I would live in a perpetual drunken stupor for the rest of my life. And now, you could not pay me to pass in my adult card. Priorities change, you change, the way you see the world changes and it is pretty awesome.

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  • you've got your career sorted so why not relax a bit and enjoy yourself and not worry so much? you mentioned excitement maybe you could do things like parachuting or bungee jumping, high adrenaline hobbies

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  • computasaysnoo

    Firstly, you need to be reminded of your age. You're 19! Most people party right up to 30 nowadays. The reason your parents are like that is because they've done all the partying, drinking etc that you will do, and they've come through the other side. You can be anything you want to be. Just have fun with your friends, meet girls, party, like any 19 year old and you'll meet somebody some day who you'll want to settle down with.

    By the time you're 40, the attraction to young bars and clubs is at 0. There'll be more mature ones which you can go to. I know you're probably freaking out, reading this, but all I can say is have fun in the moment - now, and the rest will fall into place.

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  • Dozis

    Well, that's what being adults is all about. Work,doing chores,paying the bills, be a pain in the ass to kids, watch lame tvshows and complaining about everything going wrong. Which means complaining about money because in the masses imaginary everything can be better if you have more money. So they scheme to get some extra money without working to earn it. What else is being an adult all about anyway? Nobody ever said it is all fun and games. Right?
    What's a complete adult anyway? Somebody who always knows what's the right thing to do? Somebody who goes on/off responsible/irresponsible?
    Or it is just about age? You have more than eighteen years old? You are legally an adult. Whether you like it or not you have to take your responsabilities.
    There is no getting out of things by saying: but I am not a complete adult!
    There is no such A thing as a " true adult". You are just seeing the models around you as an example of "true adulthood" but that's not the only way of living your life. It's probably your only chance, the only thing most people around you
    Expect you to be. Wouldn't it be better to just sit there, analyze your situation,ponder your chances, and come up with a long term plan to stick with that doesn't involve becoming like the people you so clearly despise? Iike: I do not wanna become like them. But that does not mean I am going to have to keep living like a teenager for the rest of my life. What is it I want?
    I want more friends I can rely on, and the chance to do something fun and basically live a life that is not boring and crappy like the ones of the people I had a chance to observe. How can I get that? That's what being adult is really all about. Think about what you want and find out ways to get there taking into consideration the fact that if you fuck up, you are goong to find something else on your hands and it will probably be a gargantuan amount of pigshit.
    So you know: goal. Means to achieve it. Alternative course of actions. Also known as plan b. Conditions you feel like putting up with and you can withstand. Possible alternative outcomes. Probable unforseen events. Obstacles standing in my way. How do I get around them? Can I get around them? Or moan them down? What can I do and what I cannot do. These are all the things you mist be thinking about. Whether you are planning on becoming a boring fatso spending his days like every other adult you have seen, or you plan on becoming a jolly funny friendly guy who's fourty years old and still plays videogames and whistles at teenagers passing by.

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  • IIN2?uestionlife

    Wow thats amazing I feel the exact same way. I just turned 20 in September and feel like my world is coming to an iminant end. I dont want to be old and inherit boring and predictable routines. Some may say, "well thats life!" But no, thats just following a guideline. And I too am very shy so I constantly tell myself, "your gonna die alone son" (mainly as a joke though, my self esteem isnt that low haha). But yea i just take it a day at a time and stick to being myself.

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  • SingleandChildfree

    Being a "True Adult" means being yourself and treating others the way you want to be treated. I'm 41 years old with a closet full of shoes, but my favorite pair are my gold sequined high top tennis shoes. I've never been married and I don't have children. I've chosen to live alone than exist in misery. You wouldn't believe some of the worthless comments I've gotten from some people. But the important thing to remember is that only someone WHO is worthless is going to SAY something worthless.

    The only thing you could possibly do that would be immature and creepy is worry about what others think of you.

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  • amc93

    I think you're more afraid of ending up alone! If you work in other state or country you'll meet new people. Also my parents have a social life after 3 kids so not because you get older your life will end. You just have to realize that they are some great things of getting old like being completly independant (i can't wait to end college!).

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  • Tehboss

    why you so weird about being a creeper? just have fun and if anyone thinks you are a creeper/bad person just tell them to fuck themselves be yourself :D

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  • Imlovable

    I tjink thatbot is completdly normal to be scaared to grow up

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