Is it normal this happened to me?

I used to get all As and Bs in school. When I was 9, my best friend moved away and I got depressed. My grades started to drop, and my parents started emotionally abusing me, which turned into physical abuse a few years later.

Each school year, I made new best friends, but each time, I found out they were using me for there own good. When I found out, I stopped hanging out with them. Then, they hunted me down and sent me death threats. They made complex plans to get me in trouble. Once, my ex-friend framed me and got me banned from the playground for the rest of the year. Another time I was knocked out and left to die (outside). I have become mentally damaged after years of abuse from my peers and parents. I live in fear every day because there are people who want me dead. When I go home, I am abused. When I go to bed I either cry myself to sleep, hallucinate about a demon that tortures me (long story), or have nightmares. I am literally in pain with every step, because I self-harm my feet. I suffer at school, at home, and at night.

I have become a complete wreck and I've lost most of my ability to socialize, walk properly, talk properly, speak properly or think straight without remembering the pain I suffer every day. I also suffer from sleep paralysis hallucinations. Is it normal for people to become like this after so much abuse?

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54% Normal
Based on 24 votes (13 yes)
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  • Short4Words

    Suffering can manifest in the conscious or unconscious mind in many ways.

    I'm sorry for what's happened but you shouldn't help yourself suffer any more. Stop cutting your feet.

    You should see your school counselor and see what help you can get there. Even maybe just having someone to talk to might be good for you.

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  • thegypsysailor

    I'm sure there are mental health specialists somewhere near you and you should probably take advantage of them sooner, rather than later.

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