Is it normal to be a loser at school but outgoing out of school?
I guess you can consider me an introvert, I like routine and doing my own thing but sometimes I let lose, a little too lose. I feel like a total outcast at school from like 4th grade to even college now ! When is it gonna end ?! I just figure okay the whole school atmosphere isn't for me. Out of school, I'm happy, myself, probably a total different person from what people think I am at school. Right now is a great example. Ive been partying hard every weekend, people at my apartment see me as this fun outgoing confident girl and I feel like that's me. At school though people make me feel lame, ugly, loser, dumb, etc especially the ones from my major. I am intimidated by the people in my major which probably contributes to why I act so awkward. But I feel like its out in the open that I'm this awkward student who doesn't know what she's doing with her life and needs more practice. So it frustrates me that they can't see who I really am and if they did, I know they'd be shocked. I like to call it a loser at school but a wild child at night. Is that normal ? Who knows maybe the people I see and who are obviously nerdy an awkward are different out of school. School is just not for me which is why I'm so stoked its my last year and il be free to accomplish my dreams!