Is it normal to be embarrassed about my religion?

I dont think most people are too comfortable talking about their personal beliefs.

You're doing something different - it's normal to feel embarrassed when you stand out. If someone judges you badly for your religious beliefs, it say more about them than it does you (as cliche as it is, it really is true).

Sure, totally normal to be embarrassed by anything you do that other people don't understand, like, or practice, and it's typically due to their reaction. Obviously that should not deter you from being true to yourself, what you want to do, or what you believe in. Most just succumb to being sheeple, feed off the energy of the will of the collective masses, and don't follow their own path. It's a tough personal journey to be on the road to "not caring what other people think". Your embarrassment will go away as you get better at it. Good for you for doing as you wish and trying to come to terms with the crap that society throws in our path as we exercise our free will. Confidence in yourself and what you believe in is a great thing to work towards.

What pantheon do you follow?

Yeah if I believed something that fucking retarded I would be quite ashamed. Probably a lot more ashamed than you. Normal.

While my religon tells me to burn you at the stake, we also live in America, so be proud of your religon! Just remember, in the third world I would have killed you for saying that!

You don't mention whether you have any contact with people who share your beliefs: if you're practising them entirely alone it's not surprising you feel vulnerable to the opinions of others.

I followed Wicca and Goddess religions for a while decades back and eventually decided it was all just as much a fantasy as any other religion, but certainly Wicca is less harmful than mainstream religions.

All religions are basically entertainment really.

Think of this - There is this stigma about most religions. Like when you haven't met someone yet and someone tells you "oh so and so is a christian". Suddenly there is a vibe of, "Oh, one of THOSE people."

So you meet them and there is this weird tension cause you cannot say "god damnit" in front of them or relax, plus you are braced for some BS lecture about "Finding the Lord".

I always wondered why people suddenly decide to become righteous only when trying ti break a chemical addiction or they ended up in prison or whatever.

Pagan as in as sacrificing animals and or worshiping the tree gods/spirits/imps/fairies? I mean you are still gonna catch a lot of shit from all sides.

Nothing wrong with being plain toast agnostic. Feels like some agnostics want to feel individualistic with their agnostic beliefs by mixing in weird combinations such as spiritual hexes and all that into the trail mix of religion.

As an soft agnostic it might be possible to determine what god is in the future. Wether it's a omniscient being or the fundamental rules of the universe. Whatever started the universe in the first place is by default god. Though if the universe is just an infinite loop of events happening because of how we experience time, than I'll default to the laws of physics as god.

Though personally I hope theres something after this life. No point in believing in nothing if this is just it. It's not interesting nor calming to belive in non exsistance after death.

What you're feeling is perfectly normal, and it's the reason organised religions exist. No deity has any objective reality, and so believers have always banded together to seek mutual validation and support in a world where rationalists call them out on the irrationality of their beliefs, while those who have a different set of irrational beliefs mock or attack them for not belonging to their club.

If your syncretic paganism satisfies an internal need at this point in your life and it's not leading you to do anything harmful to yourself or others, that's fine. It's a fundamental human right to believe whatever we want, no matter how absurd others may find those beliefs. As long as our beliefs don't result in us feeling we have a monopoly on Truth and we are therefore entitled to restrict the rights of others to believe and live as they choose, our explanations of the meaning of life and the forces at work in the cosmos should be of no concern to anyone else.

I've always found those who feel the need to display a symbol of their religious beliefs just as weird and pathetic as those who get a tattoo of their favourite band or people who wear a MAGA cap or some other political symbol. If one truly believes in something, there's no need to wear a brand, since actions will always speak much louder than a trinket around your neck or a few milligrams of ink under your epidermis.

There's also no need for you to explain or try to justify your beliefs to others. Personally, I think it's all a load of hooey, but like I've said, you have the right to believe that there are fairies living under the bushes in your local park or that you have a personal relationship with Aristaeus if you so choose. If I knew you IRL, I wouldn't be any more interested in hearing about this than I am in listening to what the Jehovah's Witnesses have to say when they knock on my door.

I wonder if the main source of your embarrassment is that, deep down, you're rational enough to know that the pantheon you've constructed is just as much of a fairytale as every other religion.

Why would you feel bad telling others about your faith? Most religions want you to spread the word to others.

If there are others who share common beliefs, I wouldn’t be ashamed.

If you're ashamed of it then it means you think there's something wrong with it, and therefore you do not even believe it for what it is but just to act like a different emo kid kind of.

People that truly believe in something do not feel ashamed about it. Basically, you're a fony.