Is it normal to be me??

I am 30 years old indonesian gay. I am smart and easily accepted in any companies if i got the interview and my education background was also good cause i graduated from reputated college back home. Most of my friends has already become "someone" and succesful all over the world, but I am not yet. Its because of my health after I graduated which is I believe because of the pshycologhical things. The unacceptable of gayness in my country also made it worse. So, I gotta insomnia after my first break up and then continuous headache til now. Its all ruin my plans of life. I also addicted with masturbation when i was alone eventhough now i live with my boyfriend. Is it normal that i have all this issue? Am I the only person in the world having this continuous headache for years? I will start again my new job and I am worried because this would be another prestigious hotel in Dubai. I always ended up giving up in previous hospitality industries before. I need to work to support my family backhome. Hmmhh...