Is it normal to be so hurt

iv been married 30 years and my wifes non stop complaining is getting to be so annoying i feel like killing her at times how much she goes on and on and on even her family and our friends do notice and comment and word got back to me of people saying how stupit and donkey i am . so let me tell u no matter what i do its not up to her likening .from moment i wake up in morning shee tells me im making to much noice getting dressed . if i ring her on my break its listen to how stupit and no good man i am .if we go shopping the traffic jam is way i went . the world resession was my doing .even covid its gone past the joke