Is it normal to be so moody and to reflect on the past a lot?
I am very changeable. Sometimes I am in a good mood and then one day I can quickly change up and it's like my evil twin comes out. I begin frowning. Part of the problem is I tend to dwell on things that have happened in the past, regarding my lack of friends in college and rejection/trouble with getting women. Also I live with my mom's fiancee and I don't particularly care for him because when I came back home one summer from college depressed, he distanced himself from me. Even though this was so long ago, I still have trouble forgetting about how he didn't help me overcome my depression like my mother did.
Also the fact that I'm not having sex makes me mad too sometimes. I haven't found a fuck buddy or girlfriend yet. I am joining some clubs though (not just to meet ladies) and talking to a few ladies online. How do I reduce my anxiety? I think about having sex a lot.
Sometimes I am so quiet. I don't laugh at anything because I sometimes am in a mood. How do I get out of this and live every day in a happy mood, always smiling?