Is it normal to dream every night about killing myself and others?
I dream every night, and it's always about either me killing myself, me trying to kill myself but failing, trying to kill others, or others trying to kill me. The dreams go on for hours. I don't wake up feeling scared or sad though, I wake up and feel invigorated and amused, like I enjoyed trying to murder people or I enjoyed trying to kill myself. I don't know why though, because in real life this stuff terrifies me, and I've attempted suicide in the past and I'm very glad to not feel suicidal any more. Is it normal to have dreams like this and wake up feeling good?