Is it normal to fantacize about having anal sex with "hot" men
At a very young age, like 7, I used to fantasize about being tied to a cross like Jesus but instead of being put to death, I was being dominated by tight ropes and people touching me. What did this mean? Hell, I don't know. The next day, I'd be looking at all the 3rd grade cuties. I've been looking at girls since K grade, no joke. I'd purposely position myself behind the cute girl while napping so I could look up her dress. I'd lay there slowly and ever so slightly moving my hips until the teacher caught me one day: we had a talk. Being blessed with good looks and a good body type, girls, young ladies, and woman were always attracted to me so I put little effort out to have them...and I don't mean fuck them...but have them as in "relationship." I always performed, the token ograsism before drifting off to sleep. But I always felt like something was missing with such generic sex. As I aged as well as my companions, I ran into several who did things I never thought possible. One night while on her knees giving me head she started playing with my crack then stuck her finger in my ass...if felt terrific! There were other experiences but I think you get the point, sex was seeping out of the box finally.
My wife is a trooper, will try and do anything for me and I for her. During our early days we experimented with foursomes but it was always me and three woman, my wife being one of them. Most men would think it heaven to have this experience but I became very confused about my role. Because I was out numbered, my same sex fantasies really began to creep in as I thought, "why do I always have to be the aggressor, the performer, why can't I be dominated, forced and fucked?" After a dozen of these "sessions" my wife and I realized doing that just wasn't in our or our son's best interest. But over time, my obsession with anal sex, looking at tight asses, whether it be man or woman intensified. It's not so much wanting to have anal sex but more wanting to be fucked. As far as ever being romantic with another man, even kissing is totally out of the question. It's not that it's bad its just I have no interest in being with a man like that. I can be making love to my wife then fantacize about being tied up, forced to suck cock and fucked.
There's more: I often fantacize about watching and participating with 3 or 4 men while we all fuck my wife. She is so hot I want to share her...in my fantasies that is...but all these men have to look a certain way, have a certain body type or it doesn't work. When I occasionally look at gay porn, maybe 3 out of a 100 do I find attractive.
So here's my question: Should I keep these fantasies fantasies or should I go out and try same sex sex? The problem is, unless the guy was just fucking hot, I wouldn't do it....how often do hotties like that come along....Thanks for your reply all and have a wonderful evening.