Is it normal to fear schizophrenia.
I had my first panic attack several months ago, ever since then i have been on the internet non stop desperately looking for answer (i regret it ever since) every page led me to another, until stumbled on a page on Schzophrenia. I immediately developed this fear of it and the fear of going crazy. It doesn't help that i had developed intrusive thoughts before i read about schizophrenia. they are not as extreme but they still cause me distress. I'm the provider for my family and I'm afraid of losing control of my mind.
The symptoms include: Hearing voices, hallucination, paranoia, disorganized speech, delusional thoughts
I haven't develop any of these but i test myself to make sure i'm not really feeling this way. For example...I'm out eating or whatever and i suddenly force myself to think that everyone is out to get me. I make sure, i'm the one thinking it. I then realize how dumb the thought is and go on with my day. Also i sit quietly trying to make sure i don't hear any voices.
I'm so confused, i don't know what to think! Please reply. I need support.