Is it normal to feel like this

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My self estem is very low. I am seeing therapist for 2 months now and i am getting kind of better but i just cant drift away negative thoughts. I cant trust anybody and i feel like everybody hates me and that i am useless. I get better for short period of time and then all of a sudden these thoughts keep attacking me and i dont feel myself anymore. Its like i change my perspective on life every two or more weeks. I start to hate people for no reason and then start loving them again and its so fucked up from me to do that. I think that people hate me, so to protect myself i start to hate them. And i know that i am being a piece of shit but i cant help it, i am not in control i try to be but i cant. I started forcing myself to think positive, everytime i have negative thoughts i try to replace them with good but you know on some days i just get tired of fooling myself. I am rude to my mom, to my friends and i its like there is something in my head that is telling me "they hate you, youre nobody, youre dumb etc". Latley i started having anger isues, everything bothers me and i blow up over small thing or even about nothing, i am just nervous all the time. When im "good" i just get random laugh attacks and act weird and people notice that and think i am crazy.I am tired of being fucked uo thats all.

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  • WeirdGuyFromTheSouth
    5 years ago

    You desribed me. I know a lot of shit about this. Ive always been kind of off. Have you had a lot of concussions? You may have underlying brain damage. You can treat it tho.

    Look into TMS therapy. It sends magnetic signals to your brain to increase feel good chemicals like dopamine and serotonin.

    If not that you could try an SSRI Anti-depressant (like prozac) they raise your serotonin levels.

    If you want to try something OTC you can try 5htp. 5htp is the precursor to serotonin. Dont underestimate its strength. The only problem I've run into with it is it works great in the beginning but after a few weeks it stopped. It may work for you tho.

    "Saint Johns Wart" is another OTC supplement that studies have showed work just as good as prozac in raising serotonin levels.

    For me personally I take "Vistaril" and "Atenolol" and "prozac" daily. It keeps my feet on the ground. I have scheduled TMS treatments for Monday. Hopefully it works and I can quit taking medication.

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  • Nikclaire
    5 years ago

    I can relate to this. Just keep trying and as long as you are aware of what's going on, the better off you are. Most people don't even realize what they are doing, so at least your better off than them.

    Chin up!!

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