Is it normal to feel like this in school?

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No one notices me. I used to have friends but they kept standing me up when i would organise things, so i cut them off. I don't have nay friends, Ive tried to kill myself like 4 times this year and i cant talk about it. I'm not doing well in school because i want to strangle all my peers. Why should they live if each and everyone of them make me feel like dying? I don’t know what to do, i'm lost. My parents don't care about me, i have no one. I need hep but i get manipulated everyday, i feel like I’m a ghost, no emotion, no feeling. I'm numb, and i feel stupid.

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Based on 9 votes (6 yes)
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  • momgetthecamera
    3 years ago

    It's normal, and school is temporary, like most things. You are going to die anyway.
    I'm really sorry you have been so alone. It's not natural for a human to live like that. At least it can't get worse in school. Might as well do whatever you like, wear whatever you like. You are free.

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  • TsarGrogIV
    3 years ago

    Alright so I've felt something similar but WAY less strong that what you did. Try understanding yourself for a while, talk to a therapist or something. You kind of fucked up your Social Situation REALLY BAD, like holy fuck I thought I was bad but nope, so basically just forget about social shit for a while, focus entirely on yourself. Try writing stuff down, and seriously talk to a counselor or therapist, just talking about this stuff makes you feel better (based on my experience). If you manage to fix yourself just stay out of the school social situation, try making actual friends in other places where people don't know about your past, you can make actual friends that way but focus on yourself first.

    Something that helped me during my worst moments: The world has given you a terrible hand, it wants to force you to cease to exist, whether that be by your own hand, in a blaze, or perhaps in containment. It gives you no hope, there is nothing left but spite. Using that spite to REFUSE to cease to exist, despite everything that happened somehow manage to build a life for yourself. The world wants you gone, beat the odds, never surrender, even if you fail at least you will not go quietly into that cold night.

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  • Somenormie
    3 years ago

    Have you tried to speaking to a councilor at school?

    It would help you.

    However wanting to strangle someone isn't the way to go about it.

    I would tell you I have been in a similar situation like that.

    From what I could tell about you OP you are going very hard on yourself and you keep your thoughts in.

    If you parents didn't care about you like I said you should speak to someone who can help you, someone who you can open up to.

    No one should be going through this. I understand about wanting to take your own life, I myself tried that but realised suicide isn't the answer and I thought that I needed to get help by talking to someone.

    Even though I do not know you personally I think well of everyone and I think well of you as well.

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  • my_life_my_way
    3 years ago

    The vast majority of people feel left out or doubt whether their friends actually like them at one point in school. Most people just aren’t massive pussies that ‘try to kill themselves’ about petty school drama.

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