Is it normal to get haunted by remembering a child rape incident

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I had attended a night camp of my school around 15 years ago. It was fun. There were girls also.
But one night a boy probably older from us in our room raping a boy. The victim was of little age in our group. He was crying...."Don't do this. Leave me".
It was very disturbing. We didn't care much. Infact some of us knew he is getting raped. I was probably in 6th or 7th standard and really didn't aware of homosexual thing or much about sex in general. I knew something is bad going in the corner of our dark room and others are telling to not to make noise. Some might be laughing. From my childhood to teenage I don't know how to react or to feel for that matter.
In the morning when I woke a boy told me that the little boy was raped last night. I might see him depressed, sitting in a corner. I felt pity for him for that moment.
After that I forget what happened with that boy and moved on with my life. I might have this in my mind it never came out. It just last night I was remembering a funny moment of the night camp before that I also remember of jail rape scene in a movie and surprisingly after years I remembered that incident of rape which was almost vanished from my mind. It gets me upset and disturbed that I and the other group members didn't did anything to save that little boy.
I know if similar incident happens to someone else I will difinitily try to save him/her. I don't know why this is haunting me. I have to make a career. I can't be happy or concentrate on my works if I gets disturbed by an incident which I had forgot long time ago. I don't know how can erase this memory as now I can't do anything about it.
Yes, it was a lengthy story ofcourse. I need suggestions how can I not get haunted by that incident and life will be normal like before. Please advice

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  • dom180
    12 years ago

    This sounds a lot like a book called "The Kite Runner". Unfortunately, I haven't finished it yet, so I can't give you any advice based on that.

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    • sensitiveman
      12 years ago

      I haven't read that book not even heard about it before. It's not a fake story which I wrote.
      And if your intention is to not offend, then please suggest any advice or tell me whether it is normal to having in trauma if someone(in this case me) suddenly remembers from his teenage life which I forgot that I knows a rape was going on and I was kind of ignorant as didn't know what to do in such situation as nobody is protesting and that rape or molestation was just a distraction from them to sleep. Those who were there only asked to slow down the noise not the inhuman activity which was happening in that dark room.
      Don't follow a book to write what is wrong or right, go with what your heart and mind says to you and respond accordingly.

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      • dom180
        12 years ago

        I wasn't saying anything like that. I was in no way thinking that your story was fake. I am sorry if that is the way that I came across. I am entirely sure that this is true.

        I have no advice to give because I know nothing about the topic at hand. I just felt like making a contribution, because that is the point of the website. At the very least I was on topic.

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  • mumbum
    12 years ago

    Is there any way of finding out who the boy was, or who did this to the boy? You can still tell the police... Def consider this. Also, it is trauma for you as well so go and see a Counsellor. Talking about it will really be a massive help for you.

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    • sensitiveman
      12 years ago

      thanks for replying. No, there is no way I can find out who was that rapist and the victim.I have contact with only one friend and I called him who was there in that night but in a separate room. He didn't have any clue what I am talking about and he hardly even bother. I also asked him does he have any contacts with those people attended the night camp but unfortunately he don't have.
      I don't even know how that boy is now, may be he don't even want anyone to talk about it as it was in his childhood. He must have been married or any good position in his life and if the society come to know about his past he will definitely feel embarrassed. But if anyhow I can reach to the boy or to someone who knows what actually happened in that night, cause it was in dark room and we all only assumed by his crying voice he was raped. It could be only trying to molestation. If I come to know that nothing had happened that it can give me a sort of relief.
      I have only one way to find it by the coming re-union celebration. I will try to search for those who were present there and ask about that. If something really bad happened to that boy and the boy is willing to take a police-action then I will surely support him.
      I am trying to forget it as much as I can but just cant. Agreed, I am going with sort of trauma and I will consult a Counselor soon. Thanks again.

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