Is it normal to hate looking at myself in mirrors?
ok yeah, the actual thing is not exactly the same as the question but I didn't know what to write that would actually partially describe my problem
it's as if I had some sort of love-hate relationship with my face, at first when online classes started I would be constantly covering my face because I hated having to look at myself in my camera (avoiding looking at it was never really an option because I felt the need to now what the others could see), however I had no problem with looking at myself in the mirror.
When I went back to normal classes I thought that it would get better but it only got worse, now can't even look at myself in the mirror, it's like sometimes I look "normal" but other times suddenly my nose is extremely big or too small, other times it's similar but with my eyebrows, eyes, etc.
I started searching about it and I found body dysmorphia, I thought it may be that but in every place I've looked it said that when someone has it they're obsessed with it and are constantly trying to change it, but the only thing I do about it is try to hide it and avoid looking at myself in any reflection (until I accidentally look and I can't stop looking)
Now I'm just confused and I have no idea of what it might be or if I'm just going crazy, so if someone knows something please do tell me in the comments