Is it normal to have anxiety as soon as i open my eyes in the morning

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I am About to turn 60 female married for 38 years ,two wonderful children both married , four beautiful grandchildren , my mother will be 90 in August I have what most would consider a wonderful life however I am plagued by severe depression for over 20 years I overthink , I feel lonely , I feel useless ,I have been on medication for 20 years, I have months where I feel wonderful but then the depression comes back , I cannot move I I cannot breath, all I think about is everyone in my family dying and me being lonely I feel that I am invisible I have a very menial job I got fired from a job and I love fulfilled me , right now as I sit here my body is shaking my chest is tightening up it is memorial day and I have nothing to do no reason to be awake I am not happy I see a therapist and I see a doctor for medication but something is not working again I always go back to the same thoughts of losing my mother the thoughts My purpose on this earth the thoughts of loneliness my children don't need me anymore.

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  • Lifeistooshorttotakeseriously
    7 years ago

    You are not alone. Each day without even knowing you affect someone's life in a perhaps seemingly insignificant but positive way. You posting this now reminded me to call my mother tomorrow. The antidote to fear is gratitude. Be grateful for all the wonderful life moments and experiences you've had. Take a moment to write them up and reflect on how lucky you are. Try to avoid the dark moments. Keep focusing on the light. X

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  • yonduudonta
    7 years ago

    Enjoy life and those you love while you can after all you have one life and you never know how long it will be so yes fear is normal.

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  • [email protected]
    7 years ago

    Hi ,you sound so much like me.I feel bad for you because I know first hand how you are feeling.I too had a pretty good life.The problem is I have bipolar disorder since age 15. It has affected me my entire life. I went to many doctors before I was properly diagnosed.I too am married 40 Years and now at 62 have 2 beautiful grandchildren.During the manic times i lived life tolerably, worked had a nice job etc. but there were problems off and on over the years.I've abandoned friends .I no longer attend church and worry constantly about everything. and everyone .Sometimes i am so paralyzed by anxiety i can barely leave my room.other times i go to my daughters and spend time with her and my grandkids.I hope you see a doctor or councelor soon.I had to go off my meds due to side effects and now i have declined badly.I also feel alone and empty and afraid.I am praying for you.

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