Is it normal to have these extremely confusing thoughts?
What I may recall from a call with psychiatrist sometime ago that she said something akin to "Prodrome" or the word itself actually. These thoughts started as intrusive thoughts and then kept progressing to a point i'm at loss of words of how to explain it or that these complex series of thoughts will automatically trigger me to act upon them and then I start to subvocalize to myself to prevent from doing them even though I may be told that I don't need to subvocalize shit and that i'll not act upon them either way. If it's going to develop into schizophrenia, it's going to be scary I suppose.