Is it normal to have this fantasy?
It's me, Tinybird here. For a year or two, I have been having this fantasy in my head, which I envision in my head as like an animation, particularly when I'm listening to music, and especially when I am feeling sad or someone has said something horrible to me. This is the fantasy in question: I am standing on a tall building, wearing a cape which is blowing out behind me. Lots of people down below are looking from below. And then I jump from the building and fall to my death, resulting in my "heroic s****de." Because I feel like a bad person or a villain for things I have NO control over, and people teat me as such, I view this as me finally being able to be the "hero", by ridding the world of my "evil" existence.
I imagine this many times, in fact most times that I listen to music no matter the song. But especially the song "Ruru's s*****e show on a livestream song", which I came up with the scenario while listening to the middle instrumental part of the song.
I obviously have no intentions of actually ending myself, but I have this fantasy scenario play out in my head almost every day, of watching my "heroic s*****e" of me jumping off a building while wearing a cape. Is this normal?