Is it normal to have this point of view?
I believe that there is a higher being that created everything. The difference though is that this higher being finds entertainment in watching how their creations interact with each other. I don’t believe the higher being is loving I believe they see their creations as a doll house/tv show/ movie etc.
That’s why so many horrible things happen everyday all around the world and no higher being is fixing it. It’s their entertainment. Also with evolution that could be very entertaining watching your creations evolve over time.