Is it normal to like a sore lip? wtf?

I really wanna know am I the only one that does this....

I'm a compulsive (lip picker).
I always do it with my teeth, and it's always the bottom lip.
Ok, heres where it gets weird.

I love picking my lip till it's pretty Tore up. (This is usually if it's one of those days, I been doing it all day...). I love picking my lip raw! And smearing cigarette ashes in the wounds. WTF? It's kinda like, I like the way it burns. WTF?
That's also why I love lip picking in general. The burn, the taste of blood, ect... This is a pretty weird fuckng habit. I like it, and don't even realize I'm doing it! (Picking) WTF? I guess thats the compulsive part. I can't explain the cigarette ashes. It hurts and everything. The more tore up my lip?
The better. Isn't that weird?
I love rubbing ashes in my traumatized lip (making it sting even more) WTF? First of all? We all have some pretty weird fuckng interest. That thing we only do when no one's around, shit so weird you don't even have to ask no one, (is this weird?) WTF?