Is it normal to love, miss and hate your old best friend

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A few years ago, when I had a depression and was really suicidal. I met my best friend at the time. We both had the same kind off struggles. So we helpen each other trought that period. We where always supportive of each other after that and talked every day. 8 months ago tho, we both got in too a new depression around the same time. We tried to help each other. But she was afraid to talk most of the time. I had massive anxiety attacks at school all the time. Because I couldn't handle my mind. And as always I tried to talk to her about it. But she started to hold back more and more. And started slowely ignoring my issues and eventualy started bullying me as a "joke". Even though she knew what that did too me and the state I was/am in. She still was and is the only person I trust, and I feel comfortable talking to about my issues. But in a big fight, we kinda stopped being friends. But I'm not 100% sure about that. But I feel like i really need her in this period of my life right now. Still she has hurt me so much Idk if it would be allright to forgive her. But i still love her and care about her. Because we have been trough a lot together. In a month i'm going too a new school. So I will never see her again if i don't try to fix this. I miss her, love her, and hate her at the same time. Is this normal?

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  • TerriAngel
    5 years ago

    People are shit.
    You have 3 things to rely on 100%
    1 Yourself
    2 Animals
    3 The silent diety of you choice.
    Anything/ anyone else is just going to let you down.
    The sooner you come to peace with it.
    You can relax and live life.
    When someone does do something nice.
    Its frosting on the cake.
    Just never count on it.

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  • hungDaddy
    5 years ago

    I totally understand this. When I was in high school, I had a best friend that just suddenly stopped communicating with me altogether because she thought I was partying too much. She was the only one I felt comfortable talking to, and even to this day, over four years later, I still think about messaging her to talk.

    Take some time to sort out your emotions. You'll find a good balance some day, and other people that love you will enter your life as well. I send you lots of love.

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  • LornaMae
    5 years ago

    People come and go in our lives...

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