Is it normal to love your elementary school teacher, & shes a female?

I was 14 when I fell in love with my middle school teacher. She was so pretty. Long curly blonde & brown hair, grey&green eyes &athletic body,I was so fascinated with her. The day I met her,was the day that she took my breath away. At first,I thought it was just a girl crush I figured it would go away,but instead as the years went on my feelings became deeper for her.She was all I thought about in school,out of school & even when I tried not to think of my "friends" asked me a question about my teacher that let me know she wasn't my friend,she was just someone out to hurt me. She asked me were my middle school teacher & I intimate? I looked at her as if she was crazy & said no. I asked why would she ask me that &she told me she asked me that because me & her was so close & I was the only student that she brought bracelets for. I didher she was still on my mind.During the years we got very close,If I was acting out in a class they called her & I would go in her classroom & we would talk,joke around & play for hours,she was the only person that knew everything that ever went on in my house hold. She told me things that she never told other students,she was my EVERYTHING.I loved everything about her.During lunch time one day, one of n't think anything of it because during the time I liked boys. That same day my whole world changed, My friends & I were at one of my other friends house(the girl that asked me was our teacher &I Intimate)she said lets play truth or dare,I had no idea that she was making me the target&neither did none of my other friends. Everyone got dared to do things like eat something nasty,or dance But my dare? my dare was the worse,I was dared to make a fake myspace page& talk to our teacher on it for a few days then delete it.I said no.She told me If I didn't go with the dare that she wouldn't have no choice but to think my teacher &I were having sex,she said it was only a dare.I told her fine! She sat at her computer and within 5 Mintues she created a fake page & started adding random people on it,the"fake" page reached 100friends she sent our teacher a friend request, Our teacher approved & sent a message to the fake pg, the message read "If you requestin me to get laid? you're barking up the wrong page".I was nervous,I didn't know if she knew it was us playing or if she actually thought that is was an actual guy.We finally wrote her back & said hey, & afterwards I told my friend I wanted Out. My friends didn't like that she was trying to make me out to be this bad person &eventually spoke up & told her they didn't want part in that nonsense either. we all left her home,the next day I didn't go to school, when I did go All of my friends gave me a look &I knew then that she had found out. My friend made me promise that if she was to ever find out that I would take the blame for it, if I really cared about them I wouldn't get them in trouble for it, but I would get in trouble because I'm a true friend & not scared, the whole time she planned everything.I was devastated I finally seen her a couple days after that whole myspace page scam, & I couldn't even look her in her eyes. She said nothing to me, she just walked past me & didn't speak. A couple days after that, I was called down to the office,when I got there, my mother, My teacher, the principle & Myself had to have a meeting.I knew exactly what the meeting was about & I was scared out of my mind of what was about to happen next. When we sat down, she had papers in her hand, when she flipped them over it was the fake myspace page that we created.Our pictures,EVERYTHING..When she asked if I did this by myself?I just put my head down & nodded,My principle wanted me expelled,But my teacher said No. Just suspend her for a few days. My principle told me I could never speak to her or look my teacher way&if I did I would be kicked out.When I came back to school the whole school thought I stalked our teacher&made a fake page to get close to her.but I didn't say anything,I just let them believe what they wanted.I finally seen her again & all she could do was just look at me. All I could do was put my head down, I was walking to the bathroom when I seen her & a few other teachers, She spoke to me and said "Put your head up, Hello. " I looked at her with hurt and guilt in my eyes,& just said hey. That day,she came into my classroom & sat right next to me, grabbed my paper & was reading my work, she looked at me & said" This is great, Im proud of you" .I never understood why she didn't care what the principle said and I even started to question if she felt the same way as I did.thinking back on it, I was the only child that had her cell phone number, the only child she would play fight with and the only child she said she loved daily. As the years went on , I started going to high school&My middle school was right around the corner from my house so EVERYDAY,I seen her everyday and everyday we talked for a while&then went our separate ways. My feelings started growing for her deeper and deeper as the days went on&I finally had enough of it,I needed to talk to someone about it.I thought I was crazy,but I was in love.Iwent to see a therapy, & I sat & talked to my therapist about everything,I asked my therapist whatshould I do? My therapist told me this is a story that she found extraordinary &wanted to learn more about.I thought that she was just saying that because I was her patient but as I sat & thought about it I said to my therapist,I'm ready to tell her how I feel, she said go for it.I'm 20 now,I went up to my school& told her.she was busy as always but made time for me eventually,once I got nervous,I figured I'd write it & give her the paper.I wrote her exactly how I felt,gave her the paper,& before she had a chance to respond I left. Two weeks had went by& I didn't hear from her.so I wrote my teacher on facebook.She didn't answer me,she just kept reading my messages but never replied.A week later,she responded & said "your making me feel uncomfortable" However,I think she's lying.I feel like if that was the case she would've told someone in higher power that I'm making her feel uncomfortable but instead she got a friend of hers & mine to talk to me & then the outcome was this.I wrote her back from anger telling her that I hate her for making me feel this way & I never want to talk to her again.instead of responding,she just blocked me. now here I am about to turn 21,&is still madly in love with her.