Is it normal to not be sure if you want heaven to exist?
I'm an agnostic but even when I considered myself atheist I thought there could be a heaven. Who says there has to be a god for there to be a heaven?
You'd be stuck there forever. Do you have any idea how long that is? And imagine being somewhere perfect. I don't know if I'd want to be somewhere perfect. It would maybe be creepy.
My mom and I agreed that the perfect thing would be that when you die, you watch a movie of the highlights of your life, then you go to heaven, you stay there for ohhh a year or something, then get reincarnated back to Earth.