Is it normal to not being able to control your own thoughts?
Almost every night I tend to begin thinking about stuff that I'm afraid of. It begins when I see myself in the mirror or a window, and I begin to think that maybe someone is behind me? Or maybe it will pop up in the mirror if I look at it too long?
Then... I just can't get rid of it. It's like someone controls my mind and makes me think of stupid things. Like: "If you don't tap on that door three times you will see something" or "You have to go back to the bathroom to check the door and water tap".
9 out of 10 times it ends with me curled up in the bed, staring into the wall, whispering: "No... no... no..." over and over again because I can't control it at all. It's really freaking me out and I don't know what to do any more. Am I the only one?