Is it normal to not fear what most other people fear?
Okay, I would never say im fearless, i mean, i was fraid of talking to a girl, its not like i was gonna die. But i dont know "what" i was afraid of? It wasn't rejection, i asked countless girls out when i was at school, 6/10 times it was usually a no, from people i didnt know, i didnt care? why should I, i just said a few awkward words. Maybe its creating an awkward situation with people, i thought, but no, because i sent a text (intended for my friend) about this girl (also my friend) i really, REALLY, liked, it was quite explicit to say the least, and i sent HER the text instead of my friend, names and everything, Yes that was INCREDIBLY awkward the next day i sat next to her in business studies, but i didnt care, i just said whatever, i like you, sorry about that. Its all cool! She didnt care. We was still two peas in a pod.
Is it normal that i dont fear death? When your dead, your dead, thats it, theres nothing to complain about, everything you possessed, you cant get back, i just hope i can haunt my family, friends and girlfriend for all eternity, i love scaring people ^^! Why should i fear pain and torture? Its all a state of the mind, its temporary, all that awaits in a worst case scenario is death, and thats near enough instant. Disease? Ha, i caught Maleria and didnt care. Ive been Haunted, i found it amusing! Does anyone else feel the same? Or am i crazy?