Is it normal to not feel any inspiration of life?
im 21. im sad because i have no motivation in life. ive been depressed on and off but im not depressed now, i think. all of my friends live at college and have a blast. they wake up and instantly cant wait to live life, meet girls, make money, make gym gains, get good grades, see their families. and they cant wait to get married and have kids.
but i could not give. any. less .fucks. about it.
i used to like life. but i realized my weak attitude was getting me nowhere. so i started acting tough 24/7. i did it for years, and now its like my ocd. and i cant feel any real emotions anymore. im just numb. my girlfriend of 4 years thinks im a psycopath. im not, but i literally act like one. my sisters call me an asshole jerk because i dont care to have convos with the family. i just think they are dumb and boring.
i also stopped listening to music. it used to make me feel really good. high on life good. when i listen to those particular songs, i remember how i felt. and now im blank.
i used to love gaming, but i just stopped buying the new games i normally would have DIED for.
i feel like im just a human on earth doing nothing for no reason. and nothing at ALL matters.