Is it normal to not want a normal life?
Hi everyone,
I've been having problems with the duality of my life for the past 4 years now. IM a 20 year old male in the Infantry. I dont like to go out and party, dont drink, never had sex or a girlfriend (not homosexual) and I can never seem to relax in public. All I care about is my job and nothing else, absolutely nothing. Sometimes I've thought of starting a relationship with a girl, and I've had plenty of chances, but I'm convinced that a creature like myself will never be able to hold a relationship, or handle children, or do anything competently apart from pulling the trigger. It's like I'm at war with myself everyday. If I'm ever booted out of the armed forces, i will honestly end myself. My life just wont seem to have a purpose then. Any thoughts?