Is it normal to only sleep 3 nights per week?
Ok, so I'll write my motives for this as simple as I can... As a 24 year old single female with no financial support, I work as a full-time illustrator for books, magazines, anything I can grab. It only gives me enough money to pay my bills if I work A LOT. This is mostly because I live in a third-world country - if it wasn't the case I would have a great living, speaking in terms of comfort. All I want is a decent flat and some free time.
But I need to work for a lot of editors at the same time. More work, more money. So basically I drink a lot of caffeine and pop about 600mg of modafinil per day (I can stay up for 3-4 nights straight like that). It's only until I have enough money to get out of here, though.
Also, when I sleep, it's more like a 3 hour nap. I also have zero appetite (I'm only 45kg right now, and I'm kind of tall) and only sociolize so I can feel a little sane. My lifestyle is quite isolated despite having friends.
I don't mind any of it because I love my job. Does anyone else do this or is it just me?
But the worst is, I'm not even that great of an artist. Quite mediocre compared to real professionals, actually. I feel like a worthless human being sometimes, inside and out.
If you'd like to check some of my work and give a feedback, I would love that, even if you hate it. Any word about it is more than welcome. Here it is: http://juliaflohr.deviantart.com/
Thanks so much for your time :) Am I abnormal? Will I die eventually from lack of sleep and too much modafinil?