Is it normal to question our existence and the significance of it everyday?
Everyday, I wake up, shit, eat, and do something for the day. But during the day, I randomly contemplate the world, reality, humanity, and my own mind. I think of things like “Wow, im a human and can think about things” “what is the point of living” “we are all going to die” and gets more depressing as I keep thinking. I dont believe in a god and im pretty nihilistic about humans and our existience. I have mild depression and sometimes feel anxious that I dont matter (mainly that nobody matters, we are all just animals that wear clothes and build stuff) and sometimes I think about suicide. Its not serious where Im emo and want to die, but its like “Wow, there is nothing stopping me from jumping off a cliff or jumping in front of a car but my own mind”. Im really into philosophy, religion, (although i dont believe, its just interesting) and behavioral psychology.
TL:DR Sorry for rambling nonsense. I just want to know, do you think about your own death, nothing matters in the world, and everone will die? Do you think about this everyday?