Is it normal to revert back to your child-hood/teen behavior?
I am 31 and for the past 2 or 3 years or so I realized that I have been slowly reverting to some of my teenage and/or childhood habits, like TV shows and sitcoms I used to watch when I was in my early teens or looking up old schools and buildings from the town I grew up in (I grew up in Europe), reminiscing in the past. Recently I have been looking up class-mates from like 25 years ago or first crushes; people I had forgotten about in such a long time and until now was never really interested in having anything to do with (let's just say I wasnt the most popular kid in high school and i was glad it was over and I could move on with my life).
I am dreaming about my past all. the. time. I even see myself having those same feelings I had about some of these guys when I was 14 and insecure and stupid - even though they all moved on (so did i actually). It is just so weird. I am even starting to look up reproductions of my child hood toys and barbies etc. to collect. I am obsessed with finding things that are connected to my past, like 80s music and movies, books I read as a teen and the kinds of people I surrounded myself with at that point in my life. I am more and more seeing myself thinking about those times and wishing them back.
I feel like the past 12 years didnt happen and i am back again in high school thinking about the same guys. Only that I am 31 now and totally different. I must admit I had some serious things happen to me in my life, in terms of death in the family and moving away too many times unable to set roots and bad break ups. I dont know, i have just felt so lost for so long, the only thing that seems to have any value to me and allows me to stay semi sane is my childhood and high school and even college years - which, I must sadly admit have turned out to be the highlights of my life.