Is it normal to take pleasure in torturing weak animals?
I was given a guinea pig by a friend to keep while he's off for holiday for two weeks. The first four days I took great care in the pig; feeding it on time everyday, bathing it, changing its bedding.
However recently I find myself torturing it. I yanked it out of its cage and started squeezing it, putting it under a tap and pouring cold water onto it until it let out a series of shrieks. The longer and the louder it shrieked the more pleasure I got from it. I felt like guinea pigs are too weak to fight back and I was hoping that it would bite and "torture" me back, but it doesn't because they are so powerless.
I know that what I have been doing is morally wrong and I know that it is a sin, yet I can't seem to hold myself back. I am nineteen and I am a normal person; never had committed serious crime or anything like that.
Is what I had been doing psychopathy? Have I turned into a psychopath?