Is it normal to think you are hearing people say bad things about you?
Hello I'll try keep this short.
Sometimes when I leave a room full of people, family or friends I'm somewhat unsure about, I make myself completely uncomfortable by thinking they are talking about me behind my back. I think they think ill of me. When I've been high (on marijuana) it was 10x worse though... instead of thinking they were talking about me I could actually hear them...like I could hear them saying horrible things about me even though I know they really weren't... they were saying things like "why did you bring her here, she is so fucked up, I'm so uncomfortable being around her, I wish she would just leave, she's weird", "she always gets like this when she's with us, I'm pretty sure she's fucking mental, I really shouldn't have invited her it was a huge mistake, she shouldn't even be here", and I hear them all agreeing that they think I'm really fucked in the head. But it only has ever been that extreme when I was high. I tried to make my brain stop because I knew they really couldn't be talking like that, and that it was probably just something else being said, and my brain was just filling in their muffled voices with the subconscious things I think of myself? I'm not entirely sure. I have anxiety, has anyone else experienced this? is it normal for someone with anxiety to have these thoughts or symptoms? Most of the time it's just me thinking people don't like me and I never hear voices, just when I've been high, and I've left a room, and I could hear my friends muffled voices from the other room, that's when my brain filled in the muffled noise with horrible things about me... that's the only time I've had experiences like that. I guess something in marijuana must trigger something within me and pull that subconscious self hate to the surface. Its a pretty horrible experience when that happens, I tend to just completley stay away from weed because I can't smoke it without feeling like I need to get away from everyone and have horrible pannick attacks. Anyway... anyone else experience anything similar?