Is it normal to tongue thrust/suck while rubbing silk on my lips?
I know it sounds like an incredibly odd habit, but ever since I can remember I've had the habit of rubbing silk, satin, or anything incredibly soft with a silk feeling (especially certain clothing labels) between my fingers or ESPECIALLY on my lips while I tongue thrust/suck. I know it sounds odd but, I just put my tongue on the roof of my mouth, and suck on my tongue and rub the ribbon on my lips over and over. I do it usually while watching tv or when I go to bed. It helps me fall asleep. It is incredibly calming and relaxing, almost like the feeling you get after you meditate. It helps me destress a lot.
I never sucked my thumb or had a security blanket, so I almost see pieces of silk or satin ribbon or fabric as my "security" items. I have never met, nor have I heard of anyone else who does this. My mother tried ridding me of the habit by throwing out ribbons, labels, clothes with ribbons or clothes with really soft labels, or anything that I used to "rub" on. I would get in A LOT of trouble if I got caught doing it, so I've kept it hidden from everyone.
Well, I'm almost 28 and I still do it. My fiancé knows about it now. He says I even do it in my sleep. He says my lips move back and forth even if the silk isn't making contact with my lips. Thankfully it doesn't bother him (he thinks it's cute) but it took a LONG time for me to open up about it... I just really need to know, is this normal?