Is the fear of psychiatry normal

I am confused. I have hallucinations, yes, but they are not really bad. I just doubt that I can always assess them correctly. I doubt reality as such. I no longer know what I can and cannot believe. It just frustrates me everything. My thoughts and those that are not mine are killing me. I cannot work like this. I don't know what to do, but I'm also afraid that if I talk to my psychiatrist about it, he will have me committed. I do not want to be committed. I don't want them to stuff me with drugs and tie me down. I don't want to talk in group therapy about what I think is real and why I am there. I don't want to talk about it anymore. Why I can't be normal. Who am I anyway. I am slowly losing my mind, I think.